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i'll hide you in my walls
your body will never be found
i'll wear your skin as a suit
pretend to be you
your friends will like you more
than they used to.

i've been dreaming about you
in a pool of your own blood
with your eyes gouged out
by the work of my thumbs
the scent of your insides
from under the floorboards
the perfect perfume
to settling a score.

cause we're shapin up to be
all you wish you could have been
to write the hits and to turn heads
and to open eyes to a
brand new season.

so show me something we
haven't heard yet
cause i'm not convinced
in your heartless songs boasting
but i'll sing you something
you won't forget
for the first time i know
this is now who i am.

you kiss me like an overdramatic actor
starving for work and one last shot
to make it happen.

my eyes can't believe what they have seen
in the corner of your room
you've stock-piled millions of my memories.

hold your head high, heavy heart
so take a chance and make it big
cause it's the last you'll ever get.

love me or leave me or rip me apart
this is the voice that i was given and
if you don't like it take a walk off of
the shortest pier you can find and i'll
be singing it up, yeah i'll be singing.

would you believe me if
i said i didn't need you
cause i wouldn't believe you
if you said the same to me
near death, last breath, and
bareley hanging on.

don't be scared to take
a second for reflection
to take a leave of absence
see what you're made of.

i'm not the type to forget
about nights like this
where every single move
that i make is documented
and scored for style points.

the once ambitious one now
holds the smoking gun and if
i die in my sleep would you
still be everything that you
promised you would be?

so don't explain cause i know
exactly what you're going to say
big words, recycled phrases, and
the bittersweet taste of other girls
on your lips.

i saw your smile pass me by
and it landed far from me.

i'm in love with
things you can't define
and i'm in love with
things you cannot find

i walked away but you
were always on my mind
i was afraid that you
would never come alive
you were there for me
when i was scared of you
you were there for me
when i wasn't there for you.

i feel something's getting clearer
cause i was running to nowhere
and you're nowhere.

and i ran away cause i was
afraid that you'd be everything.

i came to you for answers and
i left confused cause you moved
me and you promised you
wouldn't let it go. now i need you
and i want you to know.

i am spinning out of
control to be with you
and i know that you
are who defines me.

he's painting pictures
i'm not making for him
and he's got a vision
without me in mind.

the long walks on moonlit beach
the promises you could not keep
for all the world we did not see
and all the smiles you gave to me
it's so contagious;you're so contagious

like the wind that i cannot see
but i know it's here in front of me
you're everywhere;
you're everywhere.

oh why can't i move forward?
oh why can't i bring closure?
oh why does my heart desire you?
oh no there goes composure.

i need some medication
i need your medication
these choices i've been making
are making me hate myself.

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fall down and i cant
pick myself up off the
ground. i see the
fucking catastrophe
and it's right in front
of me.

there's this secret i've
been perfecting about
how we paint our sins
on the ceiling. i keep
mine glued to my chest
it keeps me close like
a promise kept. i swore
i wouldnt, but you let me.

did it ever occur to you
that we could keep this
up? living like theives?
taking everything we see?
stealing whatever it is we
need? but who are we to
say what we need.

i will replicate an assembled
heart, forged from your
collective agony, and i will
tear away until there are but
two beating hearts before me.

i heard about your screaming
message and how it reeked of
your indifference. it bleeds
horizontal straight from your wrist.

you said you plan to hurt, but
that just means i'll hurt you.

maybe we'll see each other in
our next life, maybe we'll choke
on it, or maybe we'll just be friends...

we are simple, simple creatures. i
remember my most zen moment.
it was when you found me dead.

we are basic in diqguise. we are
stuck in these moments of time.
will we let go and let the past
pass us goodbye again?

you're not listening, why should
i talk to you. why should i under
stand, why should i follow through?

not asking for this strange situation.
not asking for this trite vaccination.
not asking for this genius complication.
are you loving? or leaving. or lying.
or dying away.

annihilation, exuberation, feel it
running on and on. i've broken
down.

i'd swear my mouth is open. it's
open, i'm screaming but my world
is still silent. so silent, so alone.

you've got your hands around my
throat. you've got your eyes inside
my back. you lied.

i'm an angel with broken wings
who's poisoning the night with
love, from me to you.

the world falls apart in just seven
days. it sinks to the bottom with
oceans of rain. the cure is so clear,
the blood is astray and everything
dies, except for the rain.

hold your knife against my throat,
cut me deeper. feel the blood
drip down your arm, darling.

i paint this picture on the back of
my mind and it's fading quickly like
an eighth-grade summer romance.

you're a drug, just like the gun
inside my mouth. i know it's
wrong but i just can't spit you out.

starting to come together and all
starting to make sense. we began
to blossom, so perfect. i'm starting
to understand. and you've made
this cover for us again.

can you figure it out? develop
your moment. rejection is
bliss, ignorance is almost.

you're so invincable, so damn
consumable. oh just deliver it.
you're so unbeatable, quite so
delectable, even though impossible.
very much untouchable. you're
so unbeatable, and still you go.

anyway you figure it, we all
die soon enough. the trick
is to be the first.

can't you see you remind me
so much of what i used to be.

let's say goodbye to our maybe's,
incomplete, just a texture of how
life really is and it seems to feel
so real.

eyes wide shut, faded to white, a
little conversation never seemed
to stray this far. ignore my thoughts.
is that blood on your sleeve? a
needle has droppped inside my
basket of great, great ideas.

I wanted to tell everyone that I am going to Kansas University for a month to study writing. I'm leaving this Sunday, so I'll have a big update Saturday. And thanks for all the comments! Keep them coming.

blame me and go ahead with
with your life as you always
did;force my stomach to purge
the words i might have eaten
in a feast of victorious
self-indulgence.

i simply lost my head again
i lost it all when i heard your
voice in a tone like the storm
that never strays.

though your presence is non-
existent, your stench still looms
in every memory.

i walk on ways of sadness to
see the frustration of truth, hope
that it will be endless to see that
i am real.

someday, in the event that
mankind actually finds out
what the world revolves around,
thousands of people will be
shocked and perplexed to
find out that it was not them.

and if i cant have you, ill just
close my eyes and pretend he's
you...pretend you are mine.

i can see the world through
your window and i sing to
you every night from here.

today i prayed my plane would
crash, you'd see it on the news
and you'd think of me as much
as i thought of you.

i keep the lights off;i know your
right here. you cant say no to
me in my dreams.

its body as frail as paper and wet
from her tears. she knelt in the
damp grass and prayed it to heaven
gently pressing its head to her heart
the devils in the daughters room.

she cried when she found it and he
smiled while he watched her

you lose your tongue at the scent
of burning flesh and your mouth
was so proud of your existence.
i guess you wont be coming
home a martyr.

this empty chest;this hollow throbbing
this empty shell will help you sleep
and your name will come in time but
for now, take a number.

we are pretty when we are faking
im such a liar when i smile.

father dont you cut the rope i want
to die here, open eyes, dimmer, a
chandelier. the sirens must flock
me to a new desitination.

on the surface where we fought
thats where your insides rot and
you attempted heartless manslaughter
sunken ships belong underwater

he will enter to find there is no
treasure here, just a hollow mass
of waste and death.

you look so clean but your dressed
to fit this scene;you are a virgin;you
are taken a liar.

youve only got eyes for me now,
youve only got time for me now
your only got eyes for me now and
you know how blind i am without you.

she breathes no chorus but i move her
lips to for the words "i love you" and
i taste her lips and i know she loves me.

as he's dying in his dreams i hope your
choking in your sleep.

paint your walls with his insides and
hang his life above your bed;paint
your walls with his insides and try
to sleep now.

i bet you love this...now peel back
the skin dear, peel back the skin.
and he'll just smile, but he's only
smiling to deny the pain.

i'll watch you breathe your one last
breath;i wont even close my eyes

i played my heart out on your rib
cage and you tried to sing along
but the keys i chose;sour notes.
and your singing turned to moan.

now you can feel free
to hate me for this

your type of beauty
is born to fade;one
of lust and of shame

i accept no truth
only outlook, so i
restore my faith in
nothing...but the beat
of my heart, and the
beat of our hearts...
and the blood on my
hands for reaching

you gave it away
with your eyes
youve been fucking
yourself with your
own cold hands again

if it sounds bitter...
its because it is.
i will live forever
and alone with this

why do we ask what
we already know?
just to hear when
something is real

you are only worth
what your heart is
willing, so tell me
are you willing?

its safe to say your
valor was more of
a pose. and its safe
to say that if it was
said, then it was
meant to be said.

fuck you. i want to
know how if feels
to be the best you've
ever had, so tell me
when you lose your
nerve.

after all this time, you
think this taste would
have lifted from my
lips, and i'd forget your
eyes were out for gold
and the rest.

but i can't forgive you
because i can't forget
the weight i carry on
my chest.

my wishes remain
the same: for steady
hands to be held.

and when the time is
right, you'll see how it's
funny how little it takes
for you to become
everything you say
you hate.

when you're out of sight
you'll be out of mind.
just like you told me.

so after all this time, what
can you say for yourself?
you fell so far, and for what?

you took more than time.
you know damn well i
wasn't ready for this.

the ties that bind can gag
and i'm bound by insignificance.

set yourself on fire
if you can't feel this burn.

let my roots be my guide
and my heart as my eyes.

there's not enough apathy
in my soul. my heart
refuses to grow cold.

just remember-
you could fake this feeling forever.

nothing is sacred where
hearts aren't beating.
where's your spine?

if my dreams must die
let them die in me, for
the sake of understanding
what i cannot see.

for what i'll never say
and what i'll never be
this was never for you
it was always for me.

you'll never see.
we're just flesh, after all.

ive built walls around me.
ive surrounded myself
with everything that
got me here.

but i'm tired of apologizing
and i'm tired of running
from the things i can't
hide from.

"burn a bridge or be left
behind. spread your wings
and be proud of who you
are", and i've burned bigger
bridges than you.

i know you've been waiting
for the right chance to stick
this knife in my back.

this is the last time you will
make me painfully aware
of how humiliated these
open arms i've held for you
have made me.

this chance is mine.
ive left you behind.

we found it safer inside
the lines. and noone
listens. noone cares.

please don't make this
harder than it already
has to be. let's just turn
our backs on ourselves
and the things that we've
made.

and no, i've never seen
myself like this before.
and maybe it scares me
too-to know that different
things take different times
to fall apart, but they
always do.

i made a promise to
myself that i will never
miss you. i know why
i left and i'm never
coming back.

but i'll never say "i'm
sorry", for knowing
when i've been true.

so say it like you mean
it so i can forget that
love isn't alive here and
buried in my chest.

i guess i never told you:
i was never one to go
backwards, and your
words were just words.

forget this sense of
urgency so i can sleep.
its just a matter of time
so dont hold on.

i guess i never told you
how much i can to with
my hands tied behind my
back, just enough to hold
my tongue to know how
much it hurts.

you said it yourself-
"i wouldn't miss me
either". so i don't
feel a thing when i
tell you it's over.
it's over.

this is the part where
we say goodbye and
walk away. this is the
part where we say
goodbye.

for when tomorrow
fails to come, today
is just not the same

a kiss from her is one
of the grave.

i'll lower the casket.
open the door.
open the grave.
murder.

christ is not a fashion.

oh how seldom we belong
but so elegant our kiss

and we painted crooked lies
but we danced in perfect time
to a love so much refined
we know not what it is
until it is dullen like wine

but it's never quite like this

i need not your wicked weapons
my war is not with someone like you

like bringing a knife
to a gun fight

time can kill the greatest of men
even the strongest find
themselves on the floor

fragile time can lead
you to the grave
or fragile time can
create you eternity

staring at the world
through the hole you
put through my head

i did this for you
not for your religion
not for your patterns
i did this for you

i am stabbed by grace
and slinging blood

this is my escape
a pen and a book
and if the whole world see
lets all have a good look

it is so simple
and yet they dont find
it is so simple
and yet they dont mind

the tragedy is the ignorance
behind the clean casket

on the outside they look so good
they're walking the streets
in a straight jacket

my regret is the world i created
regret the kiss that sealed my fate

it is all done wrong
or so it appears

i dont care because it
is a waste of my time

your slick.
a slick and polished mess.

there is hope for us yet.
we're recklessly looking for the truth
and tearing this place apart

i try to drown my sorrow
but the sorrow swims well

disturbing rusty knifes in
these countless attractive letters
with the directional diagram
of a guilty heart
"insert knife here"

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